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Things

I have entirely too much stuff- seven closets spread through two homes, packed full of... Stuff. Some of it is not my fault, as I am given many charming bits and pieces with genuine kindness and goodwill intended, thoughtful and precious every one. I can't get rid of anything; they all have a special place in my heart. I shop compulsively, too- a bargain is a victory, and I treasure them.
But my home and my head are full. I tried to put up my laundry, and there just was no more, NO MORE space. It was claustrophobic. I felt the weight of the fabric of every piece of clothing I own, every pair of shoes, the new pretties I'd just bought, all of it smothering me. I couldn't breathe. I couldn't see for all the Stuff- nowhere to put any more Stuff...
That moment broke me down, made me think about why I have so many Things and the attachment I have to them. Every layer and texture felt comforting, like a blanket protecting me, some sort of memory defining who I am, pure armor against the world...

...and an anchor. I've been carrying skirts and jackets and boots worn through the soles for years, across the country, through all these stages of life, and I needed them, felt like I'd miss them someday...

But I never did.
They were friends I never really knew.

I thrashed around the closet, stuffing beautiful Things into trash bags headed to Goodwill, to people who really need them...and I cried. I didn't fold them properly, I couldn't bear memorializing every little bit. I just had to have them gone and for the ghosts they represented to disappear...

I'm still crying, and it's just Stuff I never needed in the first place. I ought to feel magnanimous, proud of the nice Things I'm giving away, free of the clutter surrounding me. I should feel like a snake shedding its skin, just letting go...but it's really hard. It should just be Things...
Fret kikuyu
And it's just one closet...

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